Unconditional

I thought I loved unconditionally. I thought I was loved unconditionally. But who truly is able to do something like that unconditionally? Perhaps only some parents are able to love their children unconditionally. Even then, they set forth expectations for the children to achieve to be rewarded. They'll love them regardless of achievement, but still hold expectations. Likewise, I thought you loved me unconditionally. Who am I to judge, when I'm unable to love purely unconditionally? I hold expectations and stand by my principles. I get upset, I get frustrated, but I'll still love you regardless. Perhaps one might deem that as foolishness, but to each their own. Should one continue loving someone unconditionally, if it isn't reciprocated? Am I suffocating you...?

Lesson learnt: Not everyone defines unconditional in the same way

Disappointment

Sometimes I wonder why this emotion exists. It only leads down a dark, painful road of unpleasant feelings. I go through every day, hoping things will be better, maybe you'll be less disappointing. I see you making the same mistakes again and again. I keep getting hurt time and again. I'm even tempted to give up on us at times. Where do these ugly thoughts come from? Perhaps its been too long. I'm tired of your games. Your lies. You say you'll do this with me, but when the time comes, you're not there. When I need someone, you'd rather continue your tantrum rather than help me. Winning fights seem to be more important than the relationship between us. Perhaps I do hold too many hopes and expectations. I won't lower my standards because of you though, I'm going to keep striving to be better, and to live happily. I'll learn to love myself first.

Lesson learnt: Disappointment is a passing emotion, don't let others drag you down. Hold expectations for yourself. Focus on yourself before others.